questions

so many questions unanswered.. currently remain in my head.. would I finally be brave enough to tell my father that I don't want any other man to be married to except Mr. qX? would my father let me to be married to Mr. qX? what should I do if he said no? will I be able to find other man who could be so patient towards me the way Mr. qX does, the way Mr. qX can settle in my heart as my "only love" as well as my best friend? and so on and so forth.. I know that I have to get them answered and I have to be brave to face whatever happens next.. Please God help me.. T_T